I've been away for a while. A few weeks ago Paul and I lost our sweet kitty Sophie. She was 15, which I know isn't young, but she was really healthy, so the sudden nature of it was a shock. Losing her has been really hard for us (even our other kitty, Lily), she was a sweet, pure soul, who we'll never forget.
My family has faced a lot of loss the past few years. It got me thinking about the nature of loss and how we deal with it. Our lives are shockingly short, though of course it doesn't feel that way when you're young. We all face loss in our lives, that is if we have anyone or anything worth losing. Still, we go on accumulating people, pets, things, that surely, we will lose one day. Seems like lunacy to me. I had a thought soon after she died that maybe I could put a wall up around myself and never care about anyone again. I thought maybe I could protect my heart that way. Of course, that's the real crazy thought, isn't it? Think of all that I'd really lose if I did that.
So, to honor Sophie and all those that I've loved and lost, I'm trying hard to continue to live with an open heart, even though it gets battered from time to time.